Sidenote: It wasn't an official screening, it was just a viewing to make sure all of the Visual FX and sound cues were correct. I just happen to have been there when the director decided to do it and, almost as an after thought, asked me if I wanted to see it.

Now when I went to the screening, I was really nervous. I mean it's one thing to be on the set and make the movie, but to actually SEE what I did and how it turned out; well that could be disaterous. The night before I was hardly able to sleep with the combination of excitement and nerves. "What if I look stupid? What if I'm not good? What if the director decided to cut out all of my stuff because I was awful???" Well, that last one might be a stretch, but still I was nervous.

I asked if Ally could come because A-I know she'd love to see it, and B-I need her objective (and quite honest) opinion.

So we're sitting there in a small viewing room with the director, producer and a couple of other people...and then it started.

Now here's where I kind of lost myself in the viewing. When you make a movie, you are aware of what is going to happen as far as lines, jokes, visuals, etc. But ONLY in the scenes where you appeared. And that's what happened to me...in most scenes that I was in, I was just watching myself and getting ready for the moment that I knew was going to happen. Though there were a few times that, even though I knew what was going to happen, I still found myself surprised and laughing. Which is great. But the scenes that I wasn't there for, wow, they were great! I mean really great! The actors hit all the right beats for the jokes & there were some really nice acting moments as well.

So when it was over, I loved what I saw but was left with my mind spinning...I kept thinking, "Holy shit, that was ME in a fucking movie! The STAR of the movie!!" (along with my fellow co-star, the hilarious Kat Fiore) It was really a mind fuck. Still doesn't feel real, you know? Like it's a little project that me and some friends did...it's not hitting me that this will be on sale and strangers will be watching me perform.

So afterward I was really excited, but as I said, my mind was swirling. So I asked Allison, "What did you think? Honestly?" And she looked at me and with a very serious look she said, "It was really good. Really." And she assured me that I didn't look stupid, as a matter of fact she said, "I can always tell when you're lying and pretending to me...but there, I couldn't. You looked like you were really saying those things. And it was really funny."

I can't tell you how amazing that made me feel. If you're married or with someone in a long term relationship, you know that your partner will (eventually) be as honest and blunt as possible; there's really no reason to pretend when you're this far into a relationship. So when she was as honest as possible (and I know she was) and told me how great the movie was, I knew it was that good.

Now I'm excited to see the film again because this time I'll be over the whole "hey, it's me up there!" thing and can watch the movie objectively and really enjoy it.

And our director, Craig Moss is so fucking cool. I really feel like I've made a friend. Actually, Craig sat down with me on my latest Podcast. What a guy!

So that's been the big thing with me lately. The movie is scheduled to come out sometime late this year/early next year (last I heard), but until they release any kind of information beyond that, I can't either. But man oh man, I'm chomping at the bit to tell you more!!! I feel like I'm about to sneeze but at the last second it gets stuck...I was going to say "orgasm" instead of sneeze, but I know there are a lot of women out there who might read this and I think most women have had more sneezes than orgasms.

BA-ZING!

Later.